Yeah, I needed a new layout and I'm in a videogame-ish mood. Fuck, I miss FFX so much, you have NO idea. And FFX-2, as well, though I prefer the first.

Either way. Yeah, I have a Rikku layout, now. And I already love it to pieces. My original idea was going to involve rainbows... LOTS of color. But I randomly saw a layout I wanted to use... so... now you have it. I spend awhile on the header and then did the best I could with the FO banner and icon to match.

I'm debating on a friends cut. Maybe.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. It's official. I've lost my brain to a computer game.

Okay, not really.

Babysitting. That's what my life consists of. Babysitting and bugging the fuck out of vandigo. Hahaha.

OHFUCK. MY GRANDMOTHER HAS A FACEBOOK. O_____________________O

*coughs* Anyway. That was random.

Vandy started work today... or will be starting work, I mean. She doesn't start work until 2:45, but she left here at, like, one. So she'll be early, if she didn't get lost. Either way, I'm alone with Celeste and have to take her with me to get Tristan at around four.

My, isn't my life just exciting. The only thing that really sucks about Vandy working is, well, I can't sleep in at all anymore. She gets to sleep in since she'll be at work until 10 o'clock at night, at least to start with. And the other thing that sucks... I won't get to see her as much. It's basically get up, shower, eat, take Tristan to school, go to work, come home and go to bed. *facepalm* Either way.... at least she has a job. That way, if Kelly doesn't move out when she's supposed to, we can.

AND ON TO OTHER THINGS BECAUSE I'M A SPAZZ LIKE THAT.

I've taken it upon myself to make dinner tonight. And I'll TRY to make dinner tomorrow. Tonight is simple: spaghetti. Easiest thing ever. Tomorrow, I'll either try making elk steak or pork roast. I mean... I have to work with what's in the freezer. And if I get rid of the elk steak and shit, there will be more room in the freezer. <<;;

Yeah. Random update is random. *flees*

You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when?" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.



Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.

First name
Sheryl. Sherri. Coconut. Call me whatever you please.

Age
Turned 21 this year. I can finally drink and yet I haven't had anything with alcohol in it since I left Idaho. 8D

Location
Mead, Colorado. Tis a 'town' out in the middle of nowhere. It kinda sucks, but we're going to have to move to Fort Collins, soon. .D

Occupation
Nothing. Well. Actually, I babysit 5 days a week from 7am to 6 or 7pm. It's going to be a lot harder on me now that vandigo has a job and won't be here to help. And it'd be nice if I had a job that actually payed me more than 10-20 bucks a week, considering I didn't even get paid for that until last week.

Partner
vandigo/Vandy. Actually, I've taken to calling her Eileen in person. Tis the fault of being around people that call her by her real name constantly.

Kids
GUH. I'm constantly stuck with two that aren't fucking mine. One's four-years-old and quite the drama queen. The other is five-years-old and he's a good kid, while a little rambunctious, and he knows a LOT about dinosaurs and likes science.

Brothers/Sisters
I have a half-brother named Shelby that I was/am really close with. Only issue is that he lives in Idaho with our mother and her abusive boyfriend. We don't talk much, these days.
I also have a half-sister named Stephanie that I haven't talked to since I was five. We've sent, maybe, 20 emails between the two of us since 2007.

Pets
Well, considering everytime I've gotten a pet thus far, my mom has gotten rid of it or I've been in a position where I've moved and couldn't take it with me, I have no pets of my own. The last pet I had was my kitten, Girk, and she lives with my mom's ex boyfriend in Idaho. The four pets in the house right now, though, are the dogs Shadow and Precious and the cats Lite Brite and Pumpkin/Fuzz-Butt.

List the 3 biggest/best things going on in your life

1. vandigo. I don't mean that in the "OMFG, SHE'S THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING BUT SPEND TIME WITH HER" kind of way. I mean it in the "she's really one of the only things I have going for me" way. Because it's true. If I didn't have her, I wouldn't really have anything here that I'd see as worthwhile. And I pretty much left everything I knew and had to be here, so, yeah. At this point, she's the most important thing. And one of the best things. For as much as we fight and for as frustrating as she is, she is definitely one of the best things going on right now.

2. Moving out. No, it's not happening, yet, but it will soon enough. At least we're hoping. vandigo finally has a job, so it's definitely something that is going on.

3. This computer game Vandy's downloading for me. It'll give me something else to DO while she's at work.

After close to 8 weeks of babysitting.... vandigo and I are finally alooooooooooooooone.

Minus the dogs and cats, of course.

Vandy's sleeping and I'm starting to think that I should go back to bed as well. Vandy's mum gave me an oxycodone because I have an ear infection. Don't give me that look! I can't afford to see a doctor about it and we ran out of ibprofen and can't get some until Sunday night or Monday. She left me the last of the ibprofen out of her purse and a couple more oxycodone to last until they get back on Sunday night.

I do not like oxycodone. At all. If I wanted to sleep, I'd take a SLEEPING PILL. Or Benadryl, which I'll probably have to take to stop itching. Yay being allergic to codeine. Not.

Fuck, I'm tired. I haven't been sleeping well the past few weeks. The ear hurting thing is only responsible for the past few nights. I blame the children for the rest of the time.

Okay, maybe I will go take a nap, soon.

And last night, Vandy and I were SUPPOSED to watch The Mummy Returns, but she decided that it'd be better to just go to bed... then we proceeded to sit on the couch and discuss videogames for, like, two hours. We're probably going to end up owning every console known to man at one point, simply because she's only ever owned a Super Nintendo and a PS2, while I grew up playing every single console in the world (minus one or two that we know of). And I can't decide what my favorite ones are.

It makes me want to play Oblivion, though. You have NO fucking idea.
I might have to splurge and buy it for PC if I ever have the money after finding a job when we move out. I mean, I'll probably want to buy a 360 so I can get Fable II and play that, anyway . . . but I'd prefer to not have to buy it to just play Oblivion.
I will if I have to, though... that game is fucking ADDICTIVE. And the expansion for The Shivering Isles is win. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

I want to play Oblivion. BADLY. I also partially blame glitterdoom for going on about it.

Speaking of The Elder Scrolls series.... the only reason I played Oblivion is because I played Morrowind for a few years before it came out.

DUDE. I WENT TO THE ELDER SCROLLS WEBSITE AND THEY HAVE THE SECOND ELDER SCROLLS GAME AVAILABLE FOR DOWNLOAD. IMMAH DOWNLOAD IT AND SEE IF I CAN GET IT TO WORK.
With any luck, it'll satisfy my need to game. I mean, seriously... I know I go through phases and all, but I am a true gamer at heart. Twas how I was raised. Myron and my mom played videogames all the time when I was growing up... so, naturally, my brother and I did as well.

And living at my aunt's before I graduated, I was fucking DEPRIVED. All my aunt had was a Super Nintendo with a bunch of retarded games (minus The Legend of Zelda and Final Fantasy: Mystic Quest). I mean... she didn't even have Super Mario Bros. SERIOUSLY.
When my parents TRIED to move back to Seattle, they ended up leaving the XBox, though... so the year or so after that wasn't so bad once I got Morrowind and Fable. And Halo. I remember having Halo at one point.

Wow. A post about how Vandy and I are alone in the house turns into a "I miss videogames" rant. I'm fucked up.

Okay... Immah go do other shit, now. I guess I'll have to shower or something while I'm waiting for the game to download. *dances*

EDIT: FFFFFFFFFFFFFF. It's not supposed to be compatible with Vista and supposedly, there's ways to make it work. I'm a retard, though, and too impatient to try and make it work. Stupid Vista.

I've had many people unfriend me without explanation. The most recent person to do it was ventorus01, and yes, I am stating her by name. She's done it repeatedly since I befriended her two years ago for bogus reasons I don't feel like stating here . . .

I got sick of the bullshit. I have too much going on to keep asking her why.

Okay, ventorus01, guess what. This is addressed specifically to you and I don't give a flying fuck as to who sees it at this point. Everytime I ask you politely, you give me a bullshit excuse and re-add me. I'm tired of this.

Ever since I friended you OVER TWO YEARS AGO, you've defriended me REPEATEDLY based on the bullshit notion that I sell you out to the trolls that won't let you be. You've blatantly accused me of screencapping your entries and distributing them publicly. You've suspected me of being behind the sock puppet accounts that were plaguing your friends list.

GUESS WHAT.

It fucking wasn't me, okay? Never was. Never will be. I've never EVER given you a reason to think such things about me. The entire time I've tried being your friend, I've only ever been supportive of you and given you advice, which you almost always ignored and/or given me some excuse as to why it wouldn't work. I was honest on what I thought of your singing/screaming voice samples. I gave you my opinion everytime you got a haircut. Everytime you had an issue and I noticed, I told you that if you ever needed ANYTHING, you could come to me directly if you wanted. I explained repeatedly that if I didn't comment on specific entries, it's because I probably didn't see it because I don't log in every single fucking day of my life. I have SHIT going on right now. I'm dealing with CHILDREN ALL DAY EVERY DAY. I explained to you that I'm pretty much on hiatus and that if you REALLY needed to talk to me, you could send me an offline message on Yahoo messenger or send me a goddamn email.

And recently, the only entries I've seen from you have been riddle with "not like anyone cares". BULLSHIT. All. Pure. Bull. Shit. I've seen people offer you advice and tell you that they're there for you, myself included. Just because I'm not constantly on the internet doesn't mean I don't care about you and that I'm not your friend.

Obviously, you can't understand that. I've tried explaining that to you repeatedly. It never gets through. If it did, you wouldn't have deleted me from your friends without notice. Again.

So. This is it. I'm done. I still care about you and wish I could keep trying to be the friend I know you deserve. But I'm done. There's only so much bullshit in my life that I can keep up with. I can't waste my time on someone who can't tell when someone genuinely cares, even if it's over the internet.

Now let me tell you. I'm in a three bedroom house with six other people. Only three of the said people are people I enjoy the company of. I spend my days chasing after two children that aren't mine. I get up at six every single morning that vandigo stays in bed to be there when a five-year-old boy gets up and wants breakfast. I stay up and get his four-year-old sister breakfast when she gets up. I then sit down and watch movies and play with them until around 10:30am when I have to wake vandigo up so she's completely awake when she has to take Tristan to school at 12:45. Then, I get to sit with a little girl until she gets back and listen to her tell stories and whine about how mean I am because, god forbid, I don't give her a cookie.

I'm fucking sorry if I don't have time to sit here and wait for you to post another entry so I can comment on it. I have responsibilities right now. I have to cook for two picky snot-nosed brats. I have to clean the house so it looks halfway decent when vandigo's parents get home. I have to make sure vandigo and I have something to eat every now and then. I have to wash vandigo's clothes as well as my own and put them away. If you can call putting your clothes in a box "putting them away".

Oh and vandigo's sister? She doesn't pay us for anything. We watch her children all day every day for free. And she still treats everyone in the household (minus her children) like dirt. I struggled for weeks to get the basement cleaned up so Vandy and I could move downstairs. And guess what. Thanks to her sister . . . I never have TIME to go down there and clean it or organize it. Since I'm upstairs all day babysitting, I can't clean the area I have to SLEEP in.

So, ventorus01 . . . I'm fucking SORRY I don't have time to give you every second I have. Just because I'm not on the internet constantly doesn't mean I care about you any less than I did before. But obviously, your standards on friendship are different than mine.

Goodbye.

AND TO THE REST OF YOU: I'm sorry for the rant. But I haven't been sleeping well. And I'm almost at the end of my rope, here. I value friendship and just because I don't always comment . . . it doesn't mean I don't care about you guys, okay? I'm trying harder, but there's other shit I have to do as well.

THE POSITIVE PART OF THE POST: vandigo found a job and starts on the first of next month. We're hoping this means we can move out in a few months.

There's really no interesting story behind my username. I started using 'bakacoconut' on AllPoetry.com when I was in middle school or high school. I don't remember exactly how that came about, except for the fact that my friend Sock was involved. I don't talk to her at all anymore . . . wish I did. Either way. 'bakacoconut' was taken when I came to LJ . . . first I used bakacoconut07 when I was in middle/high school. And then I switched to [Bad username: coconutbaka"]. Now am using bakacoconut69.

Not a very interesting story.

Yoinked from revanlady

Okay, I stole this from sakuya_baby mostly because I've pretty much abandoned LJ lately . . . and I'm sorry for that. Just have had too much going on. That, and the internet hasn't been so appealing.

You might get a real update later-ish, but I highly doubt it at this point. But for now . . . meme.

- my username is ______ because ______.
Because it's been bakacoconut or some variation of it for a very long time, now. When I first showed back up to LJ, it was bakacoconut07. Then, when I returned, it was coconutbaka. I ended up switching journals and now am at bakacoconut69. I might change it again. We'll see.

- my name is _____ because ______.
Sheryl, because my mom thought she was having a boy and was originally going to name me Michael Rene. Unfortunately, I didn't have a penis when I popped out, so Sheryl Anne was the first name my mom could come up with because her mom, Sheryl Lee, and aunt, Judy Anne, were sitting right there. REALLY creative, mother. *rolls eyes*

- my journal is titled ____ because ____.
The Unreality because . . . well . . . mostly because I go through phases where I can't tell what's real and what isn't. Like, I'll be more prone to believing something in a dream actually happened, or I'll see or hear something that isn't there. Either way . . . it's my unreality. Get your own.

- my friends page is called ____ because ____.
baka's buddies because I'm creative like that, betch.

- my default userpic is ____ because ____.
It's coconuts because . . . well . . . YOU PUT TWO AND TWO TOGETHER, OKAY?

Not lesbian.

I'm sick an fucking tired of letting everyone else's assumptions dictate what I can and can't want or have. Yes, dicks are gross, but vaginas are equally disgusting, okay? I'm ALLOWED to find men attractive. Just because someone believes that I don't "react properly" to a "hot" guy doesn't mean I'm exclusively interested in women. Yes, I like boobs and clits. For all anyone knows, I might have moments where, yes, I wouldn't mind being fucked by a dude.

Let me make up my own fucking mind, okay? Stop telling me I'm not allowed to want into someone's pants just because "OMFG YOU'RE LESBIAN".

Even if I agreed with you before . . . I am a woman and therefore, I'm allowed to change my mind.

Now go back to your lives.

Okay, so you know how EVERYONE likes bubble wrap?

well, here's some virtual bubble wrap. It's not the same BUT STILL.

ANDANDANDANDANDANDAND.

BUBBLE CALENDAR. HOW FUCKING EPIC IS THAT.

OMFG, I WANT ONE HARDCORE. LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

Where were you at 2am?
vandigo and I were on our way home from IHOP. 8D

How do you feel?
Good.

Be honest; name of the last person to text you?:
Fuck if I remember.

This time last year, what was your relationship status?:
Single.

Are you easily scared by horror movies?:
*shrug* Kinda.

Does someone like you right now?
I like a lot of people... and I love someone.

What was the worst mistake you've made in your life?
I dunno, yet.

Are you mad at your significant other?
Kindasortanotreally.

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
vandigo's.

With who?
Mahself.

( survey for breaktiemz . . . I took a lot of breaks today, though )

So I have kabukilove and vandigo both added on Facebook. They both posted on there one after the other and IT WAS THE MOST EPIC TIMING EVAR OMFG.



The two posts are unrelated, but the timing is just amazing. XD

I fucking HATE this commercial. It's beyond annoying and vandigo agrees with me.

Snow. It's fucking snowing. We have several inches already, but the forecast said to expect about a foot overnight. FUCKING BRILLIANT. UGH.

I hate snow. I really do. It's cold and wet. D.

So according to vandigo, the following statements are true:
- Coconut is cute when she's sleeping.
- Coconut is cute when she's trying to look angry.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. >:|